How To Deal
Everyone goes through diffrent things. Diffrent emotions, they have things happen to them, mainly it can get to the point where you dont want to live any longer.
But how can you want to stop living , when you haven't even lived yet? I had 2 ask this question to myself once. I sink down to some pretty dark places sometimes, bad things happen, & the more they do, the more I push away. From everything. I feel so pressured & hated & invisible so much, I just want to completly fade away.
Forever. I know it's not the answer. It's not right. But. . . .nothing is right anymore. Unless your 100% perfect, flawless, beautiful in every way, then nothing is right anymore. Not really.
God will pop into my head and I wonder if I should pray or read the Bible. But most the time I just ignore it. Whatever right? Nope. That's just another thing I do that's not right. It gets to hard sometimes, you know? Like there's this huge pressure being thrown on to my shoulders, so I just throw one thing off so I can continue to hold the rest. God is wat I throw off sometimes. A lot of times. It's easy to throw it away, to be conflicted so much, you just want to end it. So instead of thinking about a situation or a religion we just make a hasty decision, so we don't have to think about it anymore. & you know it's not right, so you just close it out.
But you can't ever truly close it out. Because it's there when you go by a church, see your friends talking about God, wearing Cross necklaces, it's there.
We just don't see it. Pain. Confusion. Anger. Stupidity, blinds up all into thinking that were not worth anything. God can't be real, because he's to good to be true.
He's to much of a "perfect" person to forgive someone, who has sinned so much. He can't be real, because a "perfect" person, wouldn't let bad things happen to people. But there's a silverlining.
A truth. Answers. I don't have all of them, but no one on Earth does. Still when were confronted wtih a question with just. . .stop.
God is Perfect, so even when we sin he can forgive us. Most people forget Perfection, isn't patronizing people. & you know that saying, "Everything Happens For A Reason"? Well you've must know then bad things happen, so people can grow. Can grieve. Can change, and can be given a Second chance to live there life right. It doesn't have to be perfect or sinless, or all goody-goody-two-shoes. Because being Saved, doesn't mean you have to stop being YOU. It just means you know who your Savior is, & what you belive in. & if you feel so bad, like no one cares that your alive, then guess again. Because I do. God does & if you could just see that. Then you wouldn't have to be so lonely. You wouldn't have to keep it all inside, because you can confide in him. Even if it's hard or seems stupid like your talking to yourself, someone hears you. They hear you & if you let him he will help you. But you've got to be asking, to be recieving.
People are mean. Vicious. Cruel. & they will put you down, make you feel worthless, put you in a place where you no longer want to live.
Or you no longer want them to live. Im not saying to just ignore them & pray. That things will magically get better. I mean sometimes it can, but somtimes it causes people to kill there selves. Usually teens want to take matters into there own hands & things turn out on T.V news or in GRAVEYARDS. Speak out. To God.
Or to me. Because im also hear & I have problems, I'm trying to work on myself. So if you need ANYTHING or want to talk about ANYTHING & EVERYTHING, then just Email me. I already have my Email Adress on this site but incase u don't want to search for it, then here it is :
Feel free to email. I won't critisize you in any way.
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